Even though you are an adult do you ever have a hard time talking about ? God created it! Why should I a?

Mother of 4 have a hard time talking to my husband about it!? I dont know if it is becasue he is a preacher or what! There are so many things I would love to say. But... can never have the nerve! I feel so stupid ! It is so an area I would like to change! But feel so lost in the endeavor! I feel ugly and not y! How can you be more y?